#1012: Post Ocamp

I am imagining.

One day,

I will get drunk and cry like a lil' bitch;

For no obvious reasons;

but something deep down my mental that even I am not certain about.

I am going really down into the rabbit hole.

Affiliating with one particular kind of hypocrisy seems beyond my reach.

Unlike Heathcliff.

It takes years of training

I didn't choose the hypocrite life. There is never any choice.

I have a bad feeling about this.

So many changes I have to confront within so little time.

I don't feel like engineering;

I don't feel like HKU;

I don't feel like HK.

I can't convince myself to settle for this,

Though I did not try hard enough.

My days will get darker overtime.

I will be darker.

Seems like I am not making any friends,

whom I can connect intellectually with due quality.

Unlike high school.

Unlike middle school.

多言數窮, 不如守中。

More like,

眾人熙熙，我獨泊兮，其未兆。

Fit in?

I ain't even trying bro.

#1012